Sunday 9 February 2014

Life is a Rollercoaster...

I was going to call this post 'Up and Down' but then I realised that I wouldn't get that song out of my head if I did so. You know - the one from the 90s - up and down and up and down (repeat for 3 minutes 20 seconds in a techno beat). I decided to go with 'Life is a Rollercoaster' instead. A better song and not just because it has more than three words!

Anyway, that was some frivolity on a day that I just don't feel like it.

It's so frustrating when I felt so upbeat and positive the other day. Now I just feel defeated and overwhelmed. It's exhausting for me so I can't even begin to imagine how it makes those around me feel.

I don't mind having 'downs'. Well, I do - but with depression I kind of expect them and must train myself to handle them.  It's when they come so quickly after an 'up' that really upsets me. Then, I've not just got to handle the depression and all that brings, but the disappointment from myself and others that I can switch so easily between 'up' and 'down'.

If I knew how to stop it I would. Believe me.

2 comments:

  1. We're not disappointed in you. Twit! :oP

    And now I have that up and down song in my head. Thanks for that! :o|

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